Another blink and it's over
You won't feel it going down
An innocent bystander
Caught up in this sleepy little town
Caught between leaving
And just standing around
Somebody get me the hell out of here
I promise I won't make a sound
I never planned on being here
It's not where I wanted to go
Somebody find me a driver
To get me out of Amarillo
Something they might have told you
Something they said you should have known
Something you might have heard about
Or had to figure it out on your own
Nobody plans on being here
It's not where I wanted to go
Somebody find me a hot air balloon
To get me out of Amarillo
Snow from Knoxville to Gallup
And just some space in between
Blurry lights through the icy window
And fog that's anything but clean
You can't stop and you can't think now
I say man you can't even breathe
They said smart ones well they go around
But you were going to fast to believe
I never planned on being here
It's not where anybody wants to go
Somebody find me a single stage rocketship
To get me out of Amarillo
Get me out of Amarillo
Get me out of Amarillo
Fly me out of Amarillo
Slap me around in Amarillo
Drag me away from Amarillo
Words and Music: Justin Simison and Vinny Constantine
...
You've been saying something about it
You haven't spent much time without it
Now it's all on the way
And you've been laughing your way around it
Thinking that you might have found it
But save your best for later
With the simple words on the tip of my tongue
I can't be the only one who knows
It's starting to happen
It's starting to happen to you
You're starting to wonder
You're taking some deep breaths
Because it's happening to you
Well do you know just where you found it?
Was it something that somebody lost?
And now you're starting to feel it
I see you're starting to wear it
Something close to believing that
The simple words on the tip of my tongue
They're much too small to come out wrong
It's starting to happen...
It's starting to happen to you, just like I always knew.
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
She says it's not the first time it's gone like this
She's just a stocking stuffer line in someone's wish list
And nothing needs changing like she needs some change
But everything around her always stays the same
She was right when she said she wasn't wrong
She was wrong when she said she wasn't right
She just don't like all this confrontation
In the end, she's just a constellation
She dreams of all the crazy thoughts that beg to see
All the many things that may or may not be
But change can only happen when you see it face to face
And time it doesn't care about the strain on her faith
She was right when she said she wasn't wrong
She was wrong when she said she wasn't right
She don't seem to think much of all their consulations
Because in the end she knows she's a constellation
She struggles with the contradictions and the ends she can't tie
Indecision well it never breaks all the fixity of time
And no one doubts the consequence of the rain in her skies
They just keep pushing back the clouds to catch a glimpse of her eyes
She was right when she said she wasn't wrong
She was wrong when she said she wasn't right
She's just looking for a little confirmation
In the end she's just a constellation
Words: Justin Simison
Music: Justin Simison and Gregg Pelletier
...
Riptide, pulling me under
Telling me secrets that I don't believe
Providence, so much easier than Boston
Pushing the Atlantic right over me
Circumstance, they'll always be a reason
For doing nothing when it's time to go
Am I the only one running for cover?
Six months of cloudy days flying low
And I'm calling out
If anyone can hear me
Arizona seems so far away
Water on my face
So hard to find in Flagstaff
Breaking up my heart and leaving both sides sad
In motion
But never moving on
Always leaving
But never really gone
Highways, off in every direction
Criss-crossing all my friends
With broken white lines
Double lives, finally blurring up around me
I can't be here and there all at once
And I'm calling out
If anyone can hear me
Massachusetts seems so far away
Billions of stars tonight
They never shine like this on my porch
Breaking up my heart and leaving both sides with goodbye
Goodbye
It seems like all I ever say is goodbye
Words: Justin Simison
Music: Justin Simison and Rob Kroehler
...
It could be the beginning or it could be the end
I guess I must have lost count again
I'm so tired now my world is turning backwards
Someone's got to check my head
You got me thinking in circles
I'm spin, spin, spinning
One way, then another
Tell me something, tell me anything
I'm hanging on your every word
Because I can't find the place
And I can't find the space
Where she can't call for directions
Where ain't never gonna find her way
And where does that leave me
When all she wants to say is
Lam ba da ba da da dum
Static, I got static on my telephone line almost every time
I tried to hang it up
I tried to shut it off
But it didn't help, no it never stops
And it's almost everything I have to smile at you
Why won't you tell me what you mean
Why won't you talk to me
Because I can't find the place
And I can't find no space
Where she won't know I'm falling
Where the Red Sox game is on my TV
Where she won't see me crawling
Where she thinks I'm everything I wanted to be
I'd look it up, if I knew how to spell "lum ba da ba da dee dum"
It could be the beginning but it looks the end
I guess I must have lost time again
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
Some things are better left unnoticed
And some secret doors are better off kept closed
Every now and then I feel the moment pull me under
Right over my head
It's reluctancy that kills the curious little cats like me
With that I sit beside you knowing full well that I'm doomed
Unless the frozen tundra blooms
Maybe we'll see soon
To be or not to be, that question's there for you and I me
And I promise I won't talk Shakespeare no more
And the dawn breaks, it's another day
And all the happy couples they're gonna go their happy way
From somewhere in the back I say
Is it better to be Romeo or be alive and all alone?
With this deadly silent phone
I'm calling, but nobody's home
The questions now that you can't ask later
It's funny how the little things always change so fast
What will you say when the Patriots win the Super Bowl again
What will you say tomorrow?
Because the things that you don't notice
Could be the things that would make you laugh
And Garfield's lonely secrets, they never last.
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
My half-hearted smiles, they've got a mind of their own
They've been bouncing off the windows of your house when no ones home
You eyes, peering into my car
Looking down on everything don't matter where you are
Text messages from nowhere
Blowing up like solar flares
The won't let me sleep
So much going on in my head, my dog's taking up the whole bed
I wonder if she's dreaming
Of your smile, it's got a mind of it's own
It's been been bouncing off the windows of my house when I'm not home
You eyes, peering into my car
Looking down on everything like my own private star
I wish I had a better answer
I wish you'd repeat the question
Tell me why it's not that easy
Every day I wake up tired
My confidence expired
Nothing I can say is gonna save me
From your smile, it's got a mind of it's own
It's been been crashing through the windows of my house when I'm alone
You eyes, peering into my car
Looking down on everything, don't matter where you are
If you can hear my heartbeat
You gotta hold on and don't let go
You can even say you told me so
I can't stop thinking about you
Words and Music by Justin Simison
...
I heard you say the grass is always greener on the other side
But you never stopped to tell me why
We've become a wartime novelty of little pages half full
A tragic comedy
The more you say, the less I believe
You say I'm "just confused"
But I've worn out all my best excuses for you
It's the last repercussions of the way you held me hand
And the first time I've ever really been sure
Who the hell I am
I heard you say "What does he know?"
Well after all this time it seems that I don't know a damn thing
I guess I'm just not fit to be kind
And that's okay because you know it all
But you were never the queen of anything but the mall
That Barbara Streisand of your shower stall
And you say I'm the one who's "confused"
But I'm not the one who'll be sorry and try to undo
All the last repercussions of the way you held my hand
And the first time I've ever really been sure
Who the hell I am
It's got nothing to do with you
It's got nothing to do with what I heard you say.
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
It's a simple conclusion to the masquerade
I'm gonna throw my mask away, anyway
It's a simple solution to the disarray, my disarray
I'm gonna throw my mask away, anyway
I'm running from my head, I got a sneaky little feeling
That no matter where I go it's never far enough or good enough
I gotta say that she wasn't my problem
Can't blame it on a girl this time
I couldn't see why everything is changing
I wanted to, but not like this
To be another year older, it don't mean better
But I got a line on how to crash through all this time
It's a simple conclusion to the masquerade
I'm gonna throw my mask away, anyway
It's a simple solution to the disarray, my disarray
I'm gonna throw my mask away, anyway
Get out of the cradle
You know you want to but you're simply just not able
You'll figure it out tomorrow
Just remember that the suit you're wearing is borrowed
I gotta turn my head around and take some really deep breaths
Because I'm tired of hearing myself talk
I gotta think that it never really helped me
So why'd it take me so long
I'm shaking it off and moving much faster
You had better not take your eyes off me
I'm taking my time and I'm feeling much better
Because I'm singing with my own voice
It's my own choice
There's no masquerade
No masquerade
There's no masquerade
I'm gonna throw my mask away, anyway
Words and Music: Justin Simison and Nate Larson
...
I wish you would have told me
Or maybe given me more time
I'm stuck on the same old story
Still caught up in my mind
And some of the things that I wanted to ignore
Those times when you were thinking too much
You said "I'm not looking for salvation,"
"Just a temporary crutch"
The eye dents, the soft voices
Belinda Carlisle on the radio
You talk too much, you never shut off
I can't hardly breathe
Did you find in time
You can't take it back, but do you wish you could
For all the things you know are good?
Help me find in time
Push it right back away from me
For all the things I was afraid you might be
I don't think about it so much anymore
Ten thousand miles later
It hasn't really changed that much
The telephone's still quiet and I'm faking it again
From touch to temporary touch
The eye dents, the little soft voices
"Like a Virgin" on the radio
And you're still talking just a little too much
I'm sure you're never really gonna shut up
And I'm too stupid to breathe
Did you find in time
That the pieces don't fit so easily
Are you all the things I always knew you could be?
Find in time
Did you promise not to bear your soul?
Do you wear the scars that will never make you old?
I still think about it more than you'll ever know.
Words and music: Justin Simison
...
She's healing a part of me that died so long aga
She's healing a part of me she might never know
So what's the use in asking questions
What's the use in trying to find out why
Should I risk it all again now, will I even have the chance to try
Times are changing, and I think I'm changing too
I've found a piece of myself in you
She's shining the rain is fading day by day
Will she stay will she walk or run away
The past is never far behind me
But it can't catch me down past water street
Driving fast behind the school yard
Down by the beach, we'll watch the stars
Times are changing, and I think I'm changing too
I've found a piece of myself in you
Times are changing, I think I know what I'm gonna do
I think I just might lose myself in you
Words and Music: Justin Simison and Gregg Pelletier
...
It looks like I'm the one who can't shut up
Pictures forming patterns
But they're getting me nowhere
So don't let me out in the middle of the night
When I start saying I can make it alright
Still breaking old habits
Climbing out of coldwater currents in a downward spiral
My shadow's in the wrong place
I should have know better but it's always something
There's so much I've got to say
But everybody is watching me and no one's listening
There's no time for drowning out the old flames
I've got to let it go, let it burn until the next frame
It looks like I'm the one who can't shut up
Pictures forming patterns
But they're getting me nowhere
So don't let me out in the middle of the night
When I start saying I can make it alright
So here it is again, my latest last chance
An infomercial superstar is telling me I'm crazy
But maybe he's right, I've been up all night
I can almost see why people buy these pills
Tickety-tickety-time is gonna run out on me
But did you really think that all this was free?
I'm alone in the dark but it feels alright
Because I can't see you
No one else is gonna sparkle up my windows
Kick the Real World out of my head
Tell me I'm not the one waiting for my Carson Daly moment
In T.R.L. hell
To think
To push
To lead
To flow
To stand up
To matter
I've got room to grow
...
Are you a prophet or an angel
Strong enough to change the weather
Are you the heart of the ocean
A little too much for heaven
But you got the message anyhow
There's no keeping it from you
Someday you'll tell me what it's all about
And I will believe you
Are you the sound of the rain
Spinning over me again
Are you the thundering sky
Are you the simple reason why
I can't hide it from anyone
Nearly a year since I've slept
Still I'm waiting up for you
Are you the nightlight in the hallway
On the way to my room
Are you the motion detector
When my hear gets confused
Every time I've got it figured out
I'm starting over again
Someday you'll tell me what it all about
Because I'm just pretending
Are you the sound of the rain
Washing over me again
Are you the thundering sky
Are you the simple reason why
I can't hide it, I'm exhausted
It's been a year since I've slept
Still I'm waiting up for you
Only you
You're the last unbroken promise
You're the harbor
The shelter for my dreams tonight
Words: Justin Simison
Music: Justin Simison and Greg Simmons
...
I have asked for no redemption
From anyone but me
And if I seem to beg for attention
Please don't walk in front of me
With my head turned to tomorrow
Pack up and run away
With all these stories circling in my head
I can't remember a word she said
So would you hold me, would you take me
Is there room for me with you
If I fuck up please forgive me
After what you put me through
I don't pretend to know her game
Not sure I even know her real name
I can offer no apology
Just for being me
With all my bridges burning
The world keeps turning
I'm scared to go outside
Would you dare to look me in the eyes
Or would you try to hide
Because it seems fate's a hold out
You're a cop out
I think I'll go my way
It was you who finally fucked up
And it's me who'll be okay
Should you offer me redemption
For the truth you never told
While my head my have some questions
I'm sure my heart's already sold
I'm aware things aren't the same
And I'm not sure I'm free from blame
But I'll never offer an apology
Just for being me
Who else could I be?
...
I wish I could walk with you through fields of purple flowers
I wish I could dream with you tonight, hour after hour
I wish I could crash through all your fears
And find my way inside
I'm well aware of what this means
But still I don't apoligize
Did the thought occur to you
That today is just passing through
The only things I'm sure you will regret
Are the things that you don't do
And as the blue sky turns to gray
Please don't turn away
Destiny make up your silly little mind
And do try to be kind
Is she yours or she mine
I'm afraid I might be running out of time
All my thoughts of love once passed
I watch them fade into her eyes
Can you make this feeling last?
I swear I won't apoligize
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
Talk about the guy on your way home
And talk about the people we both know
Talk about the shooting star you wished upon
And talk about the day until it's gone
Talk about the weather and the birds and bees
But don't talk about it with me
Talk about the moments as they pass
And cry about the things you know won't last
Your every thought was something they should have known
And every time you crash it's overblown
Talk about your boyfriend and the man he could be
But don't talk about it with me
Talk about the Red Sox, man they never believe
But don't talk about it with me
Don't talk about it, don't talk about it
Don't talk about it with me.
...
Please don't you open my window
And please don't come inside
Please don't you step on my pillow, no no
I don't wanna open my eyes just to tell you goodbye
I'm dreaming thoughts of everything but you
Like air ballooning to Timbuktu
Or to San Diego, maybe Baltimore
I'm not gonna think about revolving doors
Please don't you question my madness
And please don't call me unkind
Please don't you speak of my failures, no no
My conscience you need not remind
Because it's working just fine
You think that you can hold me to
The little promises I did not make to you
But I'm on a plane to the Gulf of Mexico
I don't wanna talk about revolving doors
Don't you leave a note on my table
And don't try to look through my door
Don't you call me up and say "save me"
When you're passed out on your bedroom floor
Please get away from my bed now
Because I'm the new king of my room
Please I'm really tired of thinking
About the 100 reasons why it could never be you
I'm dreaming thoughts of everything but you
Like air ballooning to Timbuktu
Or San Diego maybe Baltimore
I don't wanna hear about Revolving Doors
I can't stop the spinning
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
It's somebody else's problem
It's on somebody else's time
It's somebody else's broken heart
Please just leave me alone with mine
Nobody can tell you anything
When you're hanging on a little too tight
Somebody tucked you away and left you with nothing
So doesn't that make it alright?
To say it's somebody else's problem
It's on somebody else's mind
It's somebody else's torn-up family
I've got all I can handle with mine
With so much talk about progress
It's something so hard to believe
How the whole world can sparkle and shine so bright
And nobody ever forgets about me
Until then it's somebody else's problem
It's on somebody else's dime
It's somebody else's terminal condition
I just wanna be alone with mine
You're not punishing anyone but you
By hanging onto what he said
And if you do things the way you always do
You're gonna get what you always get
And if it's somebody else's problem
If it's somebody else's crime
Nobody else is gonna give you their heart
And when it's too late to change your mind
You'll be somebody else's problem
Hanging on somebody else's line
Another banged-up, but beautiful girl
Who couldn't let it go in time
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
It's too soon to scold me
But too late to hold me
I'm serious as a punk rock band
All dressed in black
But still I don't feel cool
For your own protection
Just smile and nod
Because I'm all out of good advice
It's taking all my might to keep from going under
I must have fallen so far behind
I listen to Depeche Mode
And can't stand the radio
I'm standing up for twenty-somethings
Holding out but feeling nothing
Maybe they were only joking when they told us
Someday you'll amount to something
Someday love will conquer what you're hiding
And you won't feel so lost in your own room
Didn't things look pretty
On the big screen when they sold us reality
But he don't look like me
And I don't know that girl
My So-Called Life
Was worth more than one season
Maybe Claire Danes was the reason
A little to "real" for ABC
A long time from now
In a galaxy far, far away
Someone just like me
Is wishing he didn't go so quietly
I'm standing up for anybody
Feeling like a nobody
I think they were only joking when they told us
Someday we'll amount to something
Someday love will see the heart we're hiding
And we won't feel so lost
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
If this the last picture
And it had finally come to an end
Then why do I still feel the same
And why are you calling me again
You said goodbye
You said goodbye
Goodbye
You came and went
Like you were never here
So hard to see
But now so clear
And I don't want to talk about it
Some things are better left unsaid
So ask me all your questions
Could I possible overstate it more
And you say you're the one to blame
So I don't know what you're waiting for
Goodbye
Goodbye
Goodbye
You came and went
Like you were never here
So hard to see
But now so clear
And I don't want to talk about it
Some things are better left unsaid
I thought you might have been so much more
But I can't give you what you're asking for
That's all I'm trying to say
But you're not listening anway
So I came and went
Like I was never here
I don't exist, how could I disappear
I don't wanna talk about it
I'll tell you what, just forget about it
Forget every single word I said
Words and Music: Nate Larson Additional lyrics: Justin Simison
...
There had to be a better answer
Than hanging on to fading signs
But all I've got is what I've given for so long
I hear it's gonna take some time
Because letting go is always hard for me
When I hear I didn't miss you by much
And I still think I could have made you believe me
But maybe is not enough
I'm reaching for your tail lights
I pull the covers over my head
And I can still feel you breathing tonight
Three thousand miles from your bed
It only hurts when I'm sleeping
And that don't seem fair
For you to come along just when I get to dreaming
You don't make a sound, but I wake up freezing
I'm hiding from your tail lights
I pull the covers over my head
And I can still feel you breathing tonight
Three thousand miles from your bed
New Hampshire feels warmer
Than this time last year
And I know I've gotta settle up
Because I know I've gotta settle down
It's just so much harder than it sounds
Because this time
I'm running from your tail lights
Pull the covers over my head
And I can still feel you breathing tonight
Three thousand miles from your bed
Three thousand miles
More like ten thousand years
Your heart is all I can hear
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
Step around to the back porch
Where the cars on the street can't see
Give me one last look at you
Here's one last thought of me
I didn't think it would come this far
But what did I know
And time seems to move so slow
Except when it's time to go
I took a walk down Academy Drive on a cold and windy day
I watched the old man cast away his whole life into that old bay
I bet he didn't think he would still be here
Not after all these years
Now each day seems to pass so slow
Because he never let them go
And I never thought I could make it this far
But what did I know
While time still seems to move so slow
I think I'm ready to go
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
Snowdust blowing up my street
If I didn't know better
I'd swear that you were watching me sleep
My patterns, they must seem so predictable
So entirely dismissible
This is hopelessly unfair
You've seen me crazy
You've seen me mute the phone calls
And I can't see anything about your new life at all
You've seen me hiding
Just like anybody else
But I can't see anything
I'm so tired of myself
For all your words and all my plans
I couldn't make them fit
Now all I see is my whole world
Exactly the way you left it
I wonder, is it cloudy where you are
Tell my can you count the stars
I'm so jealous of butterscotch streetlights
Watching you drive home tonight
I wonder how they got that job
Tell me what you see when the night won't let you sleep
Is it everything you thought that it would be
Who do you believe when there's no room left to dream
Is it everything you thought that it would be
I'm tired
I can feel your eyes are watching me
But it's only in my dreams
Words and Music: Justin Simison
...
Timid hearts can't fight gravity
Just hold it right in front of me
Don't shy away like the latter days of April
Sound in mind, but short on time
Soon this could all be over
This treatment's for the birds
It only makes it hurt worse
Defiant, she can't hide it
The girl's got nowhere to go
But down into ashes still smoldering with hope
The murmur of the highway is not what it seems
These pages keep turning even if you don't believe
And anyone but you would complain more about less
Watching time with an hourglass and waiting to confess
She says "Tell me what good is positive thinking
When I can't decide what to wear?
Nobody else is gonna follow me down
I don't need you, I can't see you
I don't want you around
I don't know how long this smile will last
But I'm gonna use it, I'm gonna choose it
For as long as I have
And if you love me you'll understand"
And I do.
Doses of commotion, an ocean of potions
They just don't look right on this girl
So maybe she's not crazy
Was she right all along?
I never saw the x-rays, so who am I to say
But I can't stand her drifting, and I can't break her fall
I can't do the little things, I'm too afraid to call
It's hard to be silent when I still believe
And I hate most of all that it's not up to me
She says "Tell me what good is positive thinking
When I can't decide what to wear?"
I don't believe it
I know she don't mean it
I can feel her swerve in and out of my lane
She's spinning like a hurricane
Swerve in and out of my lane
"Nobody else is gonna follow me down
She says I don't need you
I can't see you
I don't want you around
I don't know how long this smile will last
But I'm gonna use it
I'm gonna choose it
For as long as I have
And if you love me you'll understand"
And I do.
Words and music by Justin Simison
I can already tell she's gonna steal my blankets
But I've got bigger problems
Because I don't know which way to run, run, run, run, run away
I'm losing my connection
And this pillow hurts my head
I've got no advice about calming me down
Calming me down
I'm a shadow of the picture
From when I was only three
Now she's tossing and turning and rolling over me
I'm thinking maybe it's karma
Maybe she's just what I deserve
Or maybe she's my last shot at calming me down
Calming me down
I'm falling over backwards and I'm out of time
I'm not blaming it on anyone
Because everything is fine
I'm not hiding underneath my bed
It isn't my choice
All I've got is a voice
But that don't help me fall asleep
I've gotta say that she's something
I'd never settle for anyone
It's not fair the way she can fall asleep so easily
And here I am with the world in my hand
But it's over, I know that it's already over
She'll see, see that I'm overrated
She'll see, see how much I've over stated
I can't believe, can't believe
I can't believe, can't believe
She's still calming me down
Calming me down
I'm falling over backwards and I'm out of time
I'm not blaming it on anyone
Because everything is fine
I'm not hiding underneath my bed
It isn't my choice
All I've got is a voice
Someday maybe I'll believe
Words and Music by Justin Simison
...
Don't you look at me now
Because I'm in way over my head
I'm drifting out a little fast now
The longer I look down
I'm spinning my way through time again
And I'm reaching for another blanket
I'm counting the miles and I'm counting the hours
Trying to dream my way back to you
Once upon a time
Once upon my cold shoulder
You found a way to be a little bit bolder
I'm just a little bit older now and I'm reaching back for you
The moon is lighting up your sleepy eyes
I'm tossing my way through another night
The once and future queen, she's all uptight
I've got to pray just a little bit harder now
I don't know how
How to hold onto you the way I see you right now
I'm fast asleep, but still I've figured this one out
I'm counting sheep, it's all I can do
Don't wake me up
It's as close as I can get to you
Don't look now
Because the sun is on its way again
The birds are singing around my bed
And soon I know you'll be gone
But I've still got so much to tell you
And I can see that you're already fading
So I'm saving the rest for later tonight
I tuck myself in then shut off the light
Wait to fly with you again
And as I lay me down now
Please tell me how
How to hold onto you the way I see you right now
I'm fast asleep still but I figured it all out
I'm counting sheep, it's all I know how to do
So don't wake me up
It's as close as I can get to you
Words and Music: Justin Simison
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It's easy to say that you couldn't see
It's easy to place all the blame on me
While good things come it seems most they just go
But you never asked and now you'll never know
It's the strange reflection that you've only now seen
Moving closer and closer through all your bad dreams
And I'm not the one who's bitching "What about me?"
Further and further from whatever it is you need
It's easy to say that you didn't know
It's much harder to be sure just where the time goes
With so much to say and with so much to see
It's never been a question of moral authority
Now there's strange reflections spilling out of the trees
They're chasing you down like you never believed
And you say "What about my lonely secrets, what about me?"
Not even close to whatever it is you need
It's easy to say you couldn't see
It's easy to say you didn't know
It's easy to say you never tried
It's easy to say that you never tried
It's not so easy to say that you never lied
With all of the things that came so easy to me
I want to hear you tell me that you're happy
It's the strange reflection that made you scream
It's moving closer and closer through all your bad dreams
And I'm not the one who's bitching "What about me?"
Never been further from whatever it is you need
Words and Music: Justin Simison